Dear God, Its me again...(part2)

Today has been hard & along with the other things on my mind, I know I need to unload the heavy weight im carrying. Matthew 11:28 ''Come to me, all you who are weary & burdened, and I will give you rest.''

• Before I do, I want to thank you for my friends =D. Thank you for last night.Thank you so much for the night we had. I got to go to see Joe performing with my 2 good friends. I hardly ever go out with them anymore these days, but last night I realised Ive been missing out.lol. I pray that I would find time (& funds) to have fun with them more often - Im becoming a kill joy.
• I was late again this morning - probably because of last night.lol. Im late alot & thats another reason why I dont want the usual 9-5 anymore. I started at 7:30am but I woke up at 7 cos I didnt get my 8 hours sleep.lol Now my manager wants to give me some sort of disciplinary. I think she is being unreasonable as I wasnt that late. I am handing in my resignation soon anyway so I dont know why its stressing me, but she is making such a big deal out of it so its getting to me. Help me to focus on the future plans for my life that you have set before me, rather than getting worked up about the downfalls of where I am at. I was so close to walking out of work today cos her bad vibe was hanging over me all day, but Dear God, help me to make the time that I have left with the company, a chance to turn things around, and show how much I am capable of. I am so frustrated with not using the full potential that is in me at this job, but may my abilities not be shadowed by my latenesses.
• I am resigning soon, to take time out and spend time with family in the Philippines, start a business and go back to studying, but Father God, I am scared about leaving. Im scared to leave the job. Jeremiah 29:11 'For I know the plans I have for you'' declares the Lord, ''plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'' I know I can stand on your promise so I dont need to worry about my financial status when I do. I am also upset about leaving my family & friends =(. I will miss London. Im upset that everyone will be havung fun here without me. how sad is that.lol. Another reason why Ive probably started this blog is cos I dont have any close friends that I can talk to in the Philippines. Yes I have family, but I never grew up with them. I went back for holidays, but I never lived with them. Lord I pray that I would form friendships while I am there, and help me to stay close to the friends I already have in London, despite the distance that would seperate us. Dear God, let me be honest, Im simply scared to leave my comfort zone. Psalm 23:6 ''Surely goodness & mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.'' Help me to be at peace knowing that you have promised me good things even when I go into a place of uncertainty.
• But Lord I thank you that I have a job and and income. I also thank you that the job I am in now, is not the career path that you have for me. =D 1 Thesselonians 5:18 'Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.'
• I feel guilty & selfish as all of these irrelevant circumstances are disctracting me from the needs and circumstances of others. Dear God, now that I have told you what is on my mind, help me to let go of it all and leave you to deal with it for me so that I can concentrate on others rather than myself.

Thank you Father. In Jesus name, I pray...Amen.