Progging in vain?

Thanks to this blog... http://adopefiend.blogspot.com/2008/10/notes-from-stranger.html

and this blog... http://adopefiend.blogspot.com/2008/10/notes-from-stranger.html

I though about my blog...


I stopped blogging for a while. Well I still typed up blogs, just left them as drafts n ddnt post them. Im not sure why, exactly. Well, lol....I know exactly why. I was getting demotivated as no one was commenting on my blog (hint hint hint hint hint) apart from my 2 number 1 fans.lol...Im not the only 1 that thinks like that am I?

Ok so...it hurts to say it but other people's opinions kinda matter to me.

Like that eminem song 'I am, whatever you say I am, cos if I wasnt, then why would you say I am?' There must be some truth in people's judgement. Being judged has always been an issue for me, thats why i was touched when a friend prayed that she would be 'blameless'.
Though we can never be blameless cause no one is perfect-Romans 3:23 (one of the first verses I memorised because of my experiences of being judged) 'For ALL have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.' HOWEVER God sees us as blameless though Jesus.

The point I was trying to make was that we dont jst want to live for ourselves n fuck what other people think. Well Ill speak for myself. I do care what people think. I try not to. But I do, and I just realised that what other people think does not matter cos I can never live up to other peoples expectations yet Jesus lived up to Gods standards and expectations, and he stands on my behalf before the only one that really matters.

So..I had stopped progging because of a lack of 'feedback'.

Thats probably why people stop praying. Because we think we are unheard? Because there are still no answers?
Prayer is a conversation. You talk but you also have to listen. Listen to what? The deep voice in the sky? No. Listen to Gods word. Read the bible and listen to what he is telling you through those words.
Unlike comments on blogs that come to you, Gods word has and will always be there. You just have to go to it because thats how important it is to you. Thats how much his opinion matters to you. If you look, he promises you will find.

Deuteronomy 4:29But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.
Proverbs 8:17I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.
Jeremiah 29:13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Matthew 7:7[ Ask, Seek, Knock ] "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Matthew 7:8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

I have often excused myself from praying by saying 'God already knows' rather than telling him myself, or after I have prayed about something, I leave it at just 1 prayer and say 'its in his hands' but really I havnt let go yet and things still havnt changed.

To stop praying shows lack of belief that you are being heard. God does hear, and better yet, God does answer.

wow this is deep...even if i do say so myself.lol
Dope Fiend/Lala....Whoaaaa...look what you made me do. Is dat youuuu?